To exist is to change, to change is to mature, to mature is to go creating oneself endlessly.

Wow, how a year can change a person. During the first four years of college I wanted so badly to have a social life and lots of friends. I tried to find organizations to be involved in. I even got suspended from school by being more concerned in having a social life than in studying.

When I moved last May, having a social life was pretty low on the priority scale. I was more concerned with trying to find a job and make some money. And even as I've been back at my parents' house I haven't worried about having a social life. Mostly because the people my age who live in my hometown are okay with staying in one small town for the rest of their life instead of spreading their wings and seeing the world. Now, I'm realizing that having lots of friends is not a necessity to survive in life.

The friends that are important are the ones who are there for me. The ones who make an effort. The ones who have been there this past year. The ones I would do anything for.

Today, I was on facebook and I saw a status update from somebody who hung out where I hung out the semester before I got suspended. His status said something about Disney. I was going to tell him that I'm in Orlando too. Then, when I asked if he was at Disney he gave me a smart butt answer. As a nanny, I'm not a fan of smart butt answers no matter who it comes from.  And, it made me realize just how much older than the kids that I hang out where I hung out before I got suspended I really am. I didn't realize how much younger they were when I was there, when I was hanging out there all the time. They seemed nice. Now, they just seem like immature underclassmen.

So to those of you who worry something is wrong with you because you don't have a huge social life. There is nothing wrong with you. You are not weird. You are not a freak. Don't listen to what the world tells you. You will never find fulfillment in human relationships. I encourage you to reach out to Jesus. He has bigger plans for you than you could ever have for yourself. Let him come into your life and change you. Let Him show you who He wants you to be. To Him, you are perfect just the way you are.